Several news for this time

My love! Privet!!! It's so sweety imagine you how you are sleeping right now over there even that i smile now at the kitchen writing this post. How i miss you my God! How i miss you! Nobody even can imagine if he or she never lives with this! But nononoooo tears! :))
Since my last post lots of things happened. I told you about most of them but anyway i want to sum up. First of all my last trip to St.Pet was success finally! They took my documents and now I'm waiting for the answer from them. The answer should be after August, 2 so after this date new trips will be to St. Pet or there will be no more trips - we will see. It's not so long time already.
Second big news is Kasya and Vova's moving to St.Pet. Of course we don't know but it seams that they will do it. Again we will see soon. From one side i don't want them to go but from another side it will be better for them both. Maybe it will help them to be closer to each other. Who knows?!
Today i met with Andrey and Galya. They told me about their great trip to Rome and Venice. Picture are really wonderful and they are very happy. Their flat will be ready till the end of the year so very very soon they will start to live together. Maybe it will be not so easy time for them but i think that they will live well together. :)))
The most funny thing is that my friends usually make plans for me for NY and now they are making plans for us! :))) Kasya asked me what i think if we will meet NY together (4 of us) yesterday. And today Andrey and Galya asked me what i'm thinking if we will meet NY in Europe together. :)))) So funny especially when i remember about September and your changing plans already for this month. What to say for so far away in future month??? But it's really soo funny for me! :)))
I think this is it for now. Tomorrow i will go to the office as usual people in the world! :)) But right now i'm as not usual girl in the world will think about my lovely (my honey, my most sweety) turkish soldier who is sleeping right now, will send him 27 my most tender kisses and will close my eyes in several minutes and hope he will come tonight!!!

Why does my heart... :)

Today was a good day: no bad news, no big troubles at the office, i spoke to my lovely boy in the morning and then in the evening. But i'm a little bit sad (wrote it and chut chut smile :) sugar fox knows why). But really i need to make in order my brains and do useful things instead of have some stupid fcking feelings (loneliness mfcker!). But wtf? Didn't you live alone for the whole your life??? And you never have problems with this before... I miss him sooo much... Anyway... kap kap
Yesterday i met with Kasya. But before i would like to say again that it was so unbelievable that it's possible to get us visa so easy now. My friend from the office told me that there was no any problem to get it for three single rus girls! Without confirmation from the hotel, flight tickets or even bank accounts details! And also she told me how great trip they had. They visited NY, LA, Las Vegas!!! During i listened to the story i was dreaming about our trip with sugar fox at the country. We can rent a car, we can loose our heads, ways enjoying the trip for smth like 2-3 weeks! It can be really wonderful!!!
So yesterday after the office i met with Kasya. Of course i told her about USA. Her first question was "When will we go to give the documents for visas?". Some time ago even before Istanbul we discussed to travel to NY. We discussed it much cause i wanted to go there. But we decided to go to Istanbul last september :)))
I answered her: "We can do these (give documents for visas) 4 of us (we and Kasya with Vova) in autumn". After that i understood that she was shocked. She said "I never understand girls who change their mind because of their guys". I started to think about it. How to say? Most of all i want to spend time with my love! It doesn't matter where but with him!!! I want to live my happiest moments of my life with him, i want to discover new countries, to smile (even to cry), to fall to asses and finally to make patom in different new cities!!! Am i egoist? or idiot? I don't know but i could not explain this to Kasya.
I miss you so much my boy! Sometimes i look into the moon and hope that the moment you look at it too! :))) And i just remembered! I'm very happy that you choose option 1 at the army (to make it at the territory). Let me feel chut chut calmer pozhaluysta! Ya tebya ochen lyublyu zaychonok!!! Iyi geceler benim askerim! :*   

That song!

Sladkiy moy! I had a nice picture in my head yesterday. I will tell you. Real thing: midnight. I'm in the metro train going to train station to take my night train to Moscow. Some people around me. I'm sitting and this song starts from my ipod. I close my eyes and see the next picture: i just arrived to your native city, coming from the plane in this special tube and this song in my ears for the first time. I like it but more i like that you will hug me in several minutes. You are there at the airport waiting for me coming out and closing one eye! :) You are there to kiss me for the first time after a long time of loneliness. You are there to protect me from the whole world and to take me to the angel's home. You are there and i feel calmness.
When i listen to the song now i usually remember that happy moment in my life. This song is "Happiness" by Kasabian. I want you to listen to it one day too. :* Ya lyublyu tebya moy miliy!!!
One more thing for tonight. I feel myself not a good student. I spent time learning and i have really big mix and finally nothing in my head... Chut-chut sad about it now. Will go to bed and will think about it.
Seni seviyorum tavsancik! Ve seni cok cok ozledim!!! :* :* :*

Sosososoooooo happy now!

Lyubov moya! I'm sooo happyyy now! :))) I'm writing alone at the room of my aunt's flat and i'm smile!!! Sekooooo! In spite that the atposphere is not easy her. I mean i feel so bad now with Shushik (she comlains all the time, gives only bad emotions), i even think to live next time at another place (I still don't know where, i even can pay for hostel...) but my love! i'm so shining inside and so happy after your call and after your news!!! Ya tebya ochen lyublyu, miliy!!! It's sososooo great that you will be at another place! Thanks for everybody who helped you!!! First of all for your father!!! Suuuugar fox! My emotions are over right now!!! I'm sorry that we soke chut chut strange - i called from skype and here everybody heard you so i was chut chut strange...
Love! One more thing! I've been to my dentis today. We will finish at the end of july! It's very very good!!! When we left the cabinet and he said some last points i said him that my head is not on the place right now :) cause i learn difficult language (usually i do not speak with people about this!) - turkish. And he said - really? My wife speaks turkish and germany. Se graduaded from St Pet main university from Turk department!:))) So funny! And even he said me smth in turish! Can you imagine??? My dentist whom i'm visiting already for 1 year!!! Very very funny!
So i go back now to the kitchen to spend last hours with aunt and Shushik and will run for the night train to Moscow in 2 hours!!! Will be in Moscow tomorrow! Lyublyu tebya ochen moya kroshechka - kartoshechka! :*

White nights in St Petersburg

My lovely boy! Of course i didn't give documants today... Nononooo it would be too easy if i did it today! I need to take one more paper (which i will take tomorrow) + i need 2 more documents which are in Mscow at my home. Cause these documents were not in the list (a guy asked me to bring these documents today for the first time! :)) ) i didn't take them! And also i shouldn't give some documents from the list which i took before. :)))) This is my country! We will see what will be next time! And next time will be on the next week already... I will enjoy white nights of St Petersburg more more time this month! ;) To be honest i'm chut chut tired of these travels to the beautiful St. Petersburg. I wast to stop this! But i should finish this thing anyway! Cause i'm a strong girl (i write this phrase more for myself :) )! Sugar fox! Everytime i want to write how i miss you and how i need you, your suport, especially in such moments. :))) Buuut anyway my love! Anyway!
So about good things! Really! It's 23.43 now and it's like day outside! I think your southen soul will like this much! I want you to see and enjoy it so much! We can walk at night (like during the day) on Nevsky prospect (main street), enjoying people around, having great time together! Eh, sugar fox! I love you, babegin! Very much love you! Opuldun! ;)

And love! Of course this post will be about LOVE! Again!

I'm think from where to start the conversation... Ok! Let's start from the main! Today is 2 months!!! Yep, sugar fox! Already two months when you are there!!! I've just smoked a cigarette and started to write this post. Askim! I love you and i miss you very much!!! Yep, that's the main thing for now!
I want to share with you one thing that made big impression on me tonight... But first two funny things from this day.
First. I've got new rule of the life! ;) If it's nothing to do at the office and you are bored - send a message to Belgihan with 1 turkish word in it from your common mail! :)))) Fck! He could not stop writing me during maybe 2 hours!!! He gave lots of ideas - how i can speak turkish, how i need turkish and etc, etc! And i just send him "tessekurler" :))) By the way my department will discuss it too when they come from holidays! And they will speak about it half of the day! I'm sure! So what you think about my new life rule??? :)))
Second funny thing of the day was my feeling during i was driving home from the office. As i told you today is a public holiday. And something strange was on the roads. Everybody moved very slowly. I mean usually russians are driving very fast like crazies! But today it was opposite! It was like everybody was drunk driving their cars so they wanted not to be caught by police = so they prefer not to take attention of them! :)))))
And finally. Impression of the day. I came home, opened my pc, opened vkontakte and found two messages from a girl. Her name is Nastya. I haven't got her in my friends' list. There were two messages with the same text: "Tell Erofenko Andrey that i love him. Please." Wtf??? And then i understood who was the girl! It's the girl who was living at my St.Petersburg flat with the guy. They rented the flat together and then she left him this March. You remember we thought first that it was him who left her. But then we understood that she was gone from him and rented another flat! So 3.5 months over and she asked me to do such thing. I should say that i went to her page. She changed much. I remember her just came to St.Petersburg, very easy girl and now she is lady!!! I mean real chut-chut wamp lady! Ponyal??? I even can not imagine that she can change so much. But anyway... I wrote Andrey. And i wished them both to find the proper way in message.
Why impressed? Don't know exactly why... I have some experience in relationship (we both have), sometimes it's so easy to kill everything and then try to get back. I hope that they will be lucky and they will really get what will be better for them both. For example, for me i know the way (at least now know!) and i really hope that everything will be horosho!
After i sent Andrey msg i went to news page and first news was adding by one group (i'm in it) the song by Bryan Adams "All for Love". Yep! That's the best end of this post. The only thing is that the most i want now is you come into the room and hug me sweety, sugar fox! Seni seviyorum!!!!! Ochen!!!!! Iyi geceler...    

Unexpected attention.

I understood already that if you do not call me my feelings are not ok. I do not know exactly why. Inside in my head i understand that it's just impossible for you to call me every day now. But maybe without thinking about this my soul is calm when i hear your voice?! Anyway...
I was chut-chut sad tonight. I mean not really, everything is horosho but you understand... But circumstances made me smile. Why?! Cause tonight my cep telefon called and it was a funny strange guy from that side of the phone - my neighbor from a previous flat. He is smth like 50 years old, ex-kgb guy. He liked to speak with me, make eyes for me (if it's possible to speak about old guys) and discuss popular and modern things (one of our favorite discussion was music). Also he knew much about me because his kgb mind can watch me all the time. For me he was very funny! Especially during such strange things like a present for my birthday. I mean i even didn't remember when i told him about my birthday date but he recognized and then presented me a zurafa which is in my yellow car now. So strange people around us!
Of course today call hasn't got some serious information. He just wanted to call me and speak with me after several months of silence. And this attention was very pleasant today!
Sugar fox, iyi geceler! Yatmaya gidiyorum. :*      

My feelings during last days

To be honest i have a little bit bad feeling during last days. I think it started from that week when i saw bad dreams every night during 6-7 days! I never sleep bad in this flat but now i started. I think it's because of nerves. Also i never cried so much during long time already but now it started again. Fcking stress! Thinking about you all the time: how hard is over there at that prison place...
Yesterday i was at Bliznetsy shop and i heard the song by Adreano Celentano "Ja tebya lyublyu". So great song... it made me cry... Fck! You know this song, sugar fox?
One funny thing. I told Kasya yesterday that now i have phone where i can call. But i speak turkish over the phone to ask you to come for the phone. I also told Kasya that the guy didn't understand me when i asked him to call you. Of course we discussed that it was the fault of the guy! :p But also she gave me a great solution. She said - you should call and start to make noise like a cow "muuuuuu" and then after several times everybody at the place will know that it's you calling for sugar fox! :)))) Great idea i think! When to start???
But this evening i've got a bonus! It was you calling in a good mood and even laughing at me! I understood from you "alo" that it was you! But i should say at least the name of the guy with whom i would like to speak. And the guy answered: "Burada Serkan A" My daaarling! Nononoooo! Do not play with meeee! :)))) I'm happy that you are better and it made me happier! Ya lyublyu tebya, moy malen'kiy durachok! :* Btw how is your russian? :p

My call to the prison.

It was my first call to the prison today. First of all i wanted to kill skype program because it made updating as soon as i should call very quickly! He should wait for me for a long time but i could do nothing and just fcking wait... Finally! It works and i call. A guy answered. I said my magic words: "Alo. Serkan Akpolat ile gorusebilir miyim?" He asked "Kim?" I understand that he asked: "Whom?" I said again "Serkan Akpolat". Then sugar fox came to the phone. I was very happy that the guy understood me and that finally i hear sugar fox's voice. But here happiness stopped. He said me that the guy didn't understand me and that he had to goooo. :( But i think that it was the guy who can not hear well not me speaking bad. I will try one more time very soon and then we will see!!! ;)

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Lyubov moya!!! I feel even worse myself now... Yesterday when i came home at smth 12 after the meeting with Kasya i wanted to open pc and write a post about how i miiiiiiiiiiss you. It's not possible to explain everything in words but you can feel it i think because i feel it. I'm thinking about you all the time. If i wrote a post yesterday it was like a complain of the life. You know that i do not like to complain. But today.... Fck! I felt, i felt that smth is wrong. Mama and Kasya told me that i shouldn't worry (there is just no connection in this place now) but my heart is not easy. Serkan! Pozhaluysta! Just wait chut-chut and everything will be great as before! Seni seviyorum kucuk kirpi! :* :* :*

Wedding day.

Privet, moy miliy chelovek! We have so limited connection now.  :( It's very difficult for me... But anyway we have to survive this too! I miss you everyday but i missed you yesterday especially! Why?! Cause yesterday it was finally the wedding of Andrey and Galya. It was first wedding where the window of the limousine car was smashed. It was also first wedding when a fiancées were late for the official ceremony. :)) And finally it was a first wedding which unofficial part took place in rock club! :))

While we were at the limousine and at the club i heard all the time the songs which always make me remember about you. There is already a list of such songs! :)) I can feel that if you are far away from me you are really next to me in my heart, in my mind! :*

The wedding was good but chut chut unorganized in my friend's style. It was possible to see people who were bored (they were from relatives), or who were too active (cause i think they were too nerviouse).

During the day we were at the Moscow film studio. It was really very interesting and nice place. Then at the club it was pleasant atmosphere and great music.

One more thing. I drunk much, really much but i was not drunk at all. I mean really at all. It was strange because i didn't drink for a long time before. I think it is because my nerves are not ok now. But it will gone very soon just after this september! :))

During yesterday day i miss you very very much the whole day. I mean usually when i'm in my day i work or do smth but when i was around couples in the beautiful dress and smile i wanted sooo much you to be next to me. To feel myself more happy next to my lovely boy. Ponyal? :))

Seni seviyorum cok cok cok!!! Ooooochen! And i will make angel soup for you! ;)) Do not know why i remember about it now but i will make! I promise! :))))  

These crazy days!

Sugar fox! These days were really crazy! There are several points. First. Why do i do everything at the last moment??? Second. Why do i feel myself sensitive before Galya and Andrey wedding (i mean i feel like their day is very important for me. Just wonder why? Maybe because i miss you sososoooo much so i take everything a little bit strange?) Third. I have a real problem with my image (i mean what dress to put on, what accessorizes, what make-up). And there is no time already and i want to shout and run from the room to the kitchen and back. Usually when i have feelings like that you speak with me and you somehow make me calm. :)) I will try to remember what you usually say me...mmmmm... your deep voice... ooooh... i missss you my love very much!!!
Btw i will watch "A girl with a dragon tattoo" on TV. I remember how you started to read it. :) How many times? :p
I want to have the same morning like yesterday. Cause my best morning starts from your voice at mu cep telefon. Seni seviyorum tatlim!!! Cok cok cok! :*    .

First day of this summer, your new place and pirates...

Omg! It's almost 1 month gone after my last post... Time is passing very quickly. From one point of view it's so long time but from my blog view - it's so short. Yep! I haven't much free time during last time (i try to spend every minute to learn the language) but anyway i will try to find out more time for the blog. Because i know how it can be interesting to read it after you come back! :*
I will try to sum up the story about our trip to Prague with my mum cause the trip was funny and good. But the most i'm worrying now is the place where you are going to have you final military. You sent me a msg today that it's Mardin central prison. Fck! How it will be over there? Is it safe? Sooo many questions, misunderstanding and worries in my head... I hope that everything will be all right! As soon as i got out of metro i called my family to speack chut-chut about your new place and my father said that it is not so bad place and that you can have easy military there. But he thinks from Russia point of view. I really hope that in Turkey is the same. I will be waiting for your news very very very much!
One more thing. After my yoga we met with Kasya and Vova. We went to Karibian Pirates film. I will not tell you how all my dreams were with you (of course Jonny made me forget about you for several minutes but then i was back for my dreams :p) and how i was waiting for your call keeping my mobile at the hands during the whole film. I will tell you about Vova who asked me: how is your soldier over there? So even Vova asked about you!!! Ponayl, sugar fox? Lyubov moya, take care and remember how i love you!!! :* Iyi geceler canim!