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Several news for this time

My love! Privet!!! It's so sweety imagine you how you are sleeping right now over there even that i smile now at the kitchen writing this post. How i miss you my God! How i miss you! Nobody even can imagine if he or she never lives with this! But nononoooo tears! :))
Since my last post lots of things happened. I told you about most of them but anyway i want to sum up. First of all my last trip to St.Pet was success finally! They took my documents and now I'm waiting for the answer from them. The answer should be after August, 2 so after this date new trips will be to St. Pet or there will be no more trips - we will see. It's not so long time already.
Second big news is Kasya and Vova's moving to St.Pet. Of course we don't know but it seams that they will do it. Again we will see soon. From one side i don't want them to go but from another side it will be better for them both. Maybe it will help them to be closer to each other. Who knows?!
Today i met with Andrey and Galya. They told me about their great trip to Rome and Venice. Picture are really wonderful and they are very happy. Their flat will be ready till the end of the year so very very soon they will start to live together. Maybe it will be not so easy time for them but i think that they will live well together. :)))
The most funny thing is that my friends usually make plans for me for NY and now they are making plans for us! :))) Kasya asked me what i think if we will meet NY together (4 of us) yesterday. And today Andrey and Galya asked me what i'm thinking if we will meet NY in Europe together. :)))) So funny especially when i remember about September and your changing plans already for this month. What to say for so far away in future month??? But it's really soo funny for me! :)))
I think this is it for now. Tomorrow i will go to the office as usual people in the world! :)) But right now i'm as not usual girl in the world will think about my lovely (my honey, my most sweety) turkish soldier who is sleeping right now, will send him 27 my most tender kisses and will close my eyes in several minutes and hope he will come tonight!!!

Why does my heart... :)

Today was a good day: no bad news, no big troubles at the office, i spoke to my lovely boy in the morning and then in the evening. But i'm a little bit sad (wrote it and chut chut smile :) sugar fox knows why). But really i need to make in order my brains and do useful things instead of have some stupid fcking feelings (loneliness mfcker!). But wtf? Didn't you live alone for the whole your life??? And you never have problems with this before... I miss him sooo much... Anyway... kap kap
Yesterday i met with Kasya. But before i would like to say again that it was so unbelievable that it's possible to get us visa so easy now. My friend from the office told me that there was no any problem to get it for three single rus girls! Without confirmation from the hotel, flight tickets or even bank accounts details! And also she told me how great trip they had. They visited NY, LA, Las Vegas!!! During i listened to the story i was dreaming about our trip with sugar fox at the country. We can rent a car, we can loose our heads, ways enjoying the trip for smth like 2-3 weeks! It can be really wonderful!!!
So yesterday after the office i met with Kasya. Of course i told her about USA. Her first question was "When will we go to give the documents for visas?". Some time ago even before Istanbul we discussed to travel to NY. We discussed it much cause i wanted to go there. But we decided to go to Istanbul last september :)))
I answered her: "We can do these (give documents for visas) 4 of us (we and Kasya with Vova) in autumn". After that i understood that she was shocked. She said "I never understand girls who change their mind because of their guys". I started to think about it. How to say? Most of all i want to spend time with my love! It doesn't matter where but with him!!! I want to live my happiest moments of my life with him, i want to discover new countries, to smile (even to cry), to fall to asses and finally to make patom in different new cities!!! Am i egoist? or idiot? I don't know but i could not explain this to Kasya.
I miss you so much my boy! Sometimes i look into the moon and hope that the moment you look at it too! :))) And i just remembered! I'm very happy that you choose option 1 at the army (to make it at the territory). Let me feel chut chut calmer pozhaluysta! Ya tebya ochen lyublyu zaychonok!!! Iyi geceler benim askerim! :*   

That song!

Sladkiy moy! I had a nice picture in my head yesterday. I will tell you. Real thing: midnight. I'm in the metro train going to train station to take my night train to Moscow. Some people around me. I'm sitting and this song starts from my ipod. I close my eyes and see the next picture: i just arrived to your native city, coming from the plane in this special tube and this song in my ears for the first time. I like it but more i like that you will hug me in several minutes. You are there at the airport waiting for me coming out and closing one eye! :) You are there to kiss me for the first time after a long time of loneliness. You are there to protect me from the whole world and to take me to the angel's home. You are there and i feel calmness.
When i listen to the song now i usually remember that happy moment in my life. This song is "Happiness" by Kasabian. I want you to listen to it one day too. :* Ya lyublyu tebya moy miliy!!!
One more thing for tonight. I feel myself not a good student. I spent time learning and i have really big mix and finally nothing in my head... Chut-chut sad about it now. Will go to bed and will think about it.
Seni seviyorum tavsancik! Ve seni cok cok ozledim!!! :* :* :*

Sosososoooooo happy now!

Lyubov moya! I'm sooo happyyy now! :))) I'm writing alone at the room of my aunt's flat and i'm smile!!! Sekooooo! In spite that the atposphere is not easy her. I mean i feel so bad now with Shushik (she comlains all the time, gives only bad emotions), i even think to live next time at another place (I still don't know where, i even can pay for hostel...) but my love! i'm so shining inside and so happy after your call and after your news!!! Ya tebya ochen lyublyu, miliy!!! It's sososooo great that you will be at another place! Thanks for everybody who helped you!!! First of all for your father!!! Suuuugar fox! My emotions are over right now!!! I'm sorry that we soke chut chut strange - i called from skype and here everybody heard you so i was chut chut strange...
Love! One more thing! I've been to my dentis today. We will finish at the end of july! It's very very good!!! When we left the cabinet and he said some last points i said him that my head is not on the place right now :) cause i learn difficult language (usually i do not speak with people about this!) - turkish. And he said - really? My wife speaks turkish and germany. Se graduaded from St Pet main university from Turk department!:))) So funny! And even he said me smth in turish! Can you imagine??? My dentist whom i'm visiting already for 1 year!!! Very very funny!
So i go back now to the kitchen to spend last hours with aunt and Shushik and will run for the night train to Moscow in 2 hours!!! Will be in Moscow tomorrow! Lyublyu tebya ochen moya kroshechka - kartoshechka! :*

White nights in St Petersburg

My lovely boy! Of course i didn't give documants today... Nononooo it would be too easy if i did it today! I need to take one more paper (which i will take tomorrow) + i need 2 more documents which are in Mscow at my home. Cause these documents were not in the list (a guy asked me to bring these documents today for the first time! :)) ) i didn't take them! And also i shouldn't give some documents from the list which i took before. :)))) This is my country! We will see what will be next time! And next time will be on the next week already... I will enjoy white nights of St Petersburg more more time this month! ;) To be honest i'm chut chut tired of these travels to the beautiful St. Petersburg. I wast to stop this! But i should finish this thing anyway! Cause i'm a strong girl (i write this phrase more for myself :) )! Sugar fox! Everytime i want to write how i miss you and how i need you, your suport, especially in such moments. :))) Buuut anyway my love! Anyway!
So about good things! Really! It's 23.43 now and it's like day outside! I think your southen soul will like this much! I want you to see and enjoy it so much! We can walk at night (like during the day) on Nevsky prospect (main street), enjoying people around, having great time together! Eh, sugar fox! I love you, babegin! Very much love you! Opuldun! ;)

And love! Of course this post will be about LOVE! Again!

I'm think from where to start the conversation... Ok! Let's start from the main! Today is 2 months!!! Yep, sugar fox! Already two months when you are there!!! I've just smoked a cigarette and started to write this post. Askim! I love you and i miss you very much!!! Yep, that's the main thing for now!
I want to share with you one thing that made big impression on me tonight... But first two funny things from this day.
First. I've got new rule of the life! ;) If it's nothing to do at the office and you are bored - send a message to Belgihan with 1 turkish word in it from your common mail! :)))) Fck! He could not stop writing me during maybe 2 hours!!! He gave lots of ideas - how i can speak turkish, how i need turkish and etc, etc! And i just send him "tessekurler" :))) By the way my department will discuss it too when they come from holidays! And they will speak about it half of the day! I'm sure! So what you think about my new life rule??? :)))
Second funny thing of the day was my feeling during i was driving home from the office. As i told you today is a public holiday. And something strange was on the roads. Everybody moved very slowly. I mean usually russians are driving very fast like crazies! But today it was opposite! It was like everybody was drunk driving their cars so they wanted not to be caught by police = so they prefer not to take attention of them! :)))))
And finally. Impression of the day. I came home, opened my pc, opened vkontakte and found two messages from a girl. Her name is Nastya. I haven't got her in my friends' list. There were two messages with the same text: "Tell Erofenko Andrey that i love him. Please." Wtf??? And then i understood who was the girl! It's the girl who was living at my St.Petersburg flat with the guy. They rented the flat together and then she left him this March. You remember we thought first that it was him who left her. But then we understood that she was gone from him and rented another flat! So 3.5 months over and she asked me to do such thing. I should say that i went to her page. She changed much. I remember her just came to St.Petersburg, very easy girl and now she is lady!!! I mean real chut-chut wamp lady! Ponyal??? I even can not imagine that she can change so much. But anyway... I wrote Andrey. And i wished them both to find the proper way in message.
Why impressed? Don't know exactly why... I have some experience in relationship (we both have), sometimes it's so easy to kill everything and then try to get back. I hope that they will be lucky and they will really get what will be better for them both. For example, for me i know the way (at least now know!) and i really hope that everything will be horosho!
After i sent Andrey msg i went to news page and first news was adding by one group (i'm in it) the song by Bryan Adams "All for Love". Yep! That's the best end of this post. The only thing is that the most i want now is you come into the room and hug me sweety, sugar fox! Seni seviyorum!!!!! Ochen!!!!! Iyi geceler...    

Unexpected attention.

I understood already that if you do not call me my feelings are not ok. I do not know exactly why. Inside in my head i understand that it's just impossible for you to call me every day now. But maybe without thinking about this my soul is calm when i hear your voice?! Anyway...
I was chut-chut sad tonight. I mean not really, everything is horosho but you understand... But circumstances made me smile. Why?! Cause tonight my cep telefon called and it was a funny strange guy from that side of the phone - my neighbor from a previous flat. He is smth like 50 years old, ex-kgb guy. He liked to speak with me, make eyes for me (if it's possible to speak about old guys) and discuss popular and modern things (one of our favorite discussion was music). Also he knew much about me because his kgb mind can watch me all the time. For me he was very funny! Especially during such strange things like a present for my birthday. I mean i even didn't remember when i told him about my birthday date but he recognized and then presented me a zurafa which is in my yellow car now. So strange people around us!
Of course today call hasn't got some serious information. He just wanted to call me and speak with me after several months of silence. And this attention was very pleasant today!
Sugar fox, iyi geceler! Yatmaya gidiyorum. :*      

My feelings during last days

To be honest i have a little bit bad feeling during last days. I think it started from that week when i saw bad dreams every night during 6-7 days! I never sleep bad in this flat but now i started. I think it's because of nerves. Also i never cried so much during long time already but now it started again. Fcking stress! Thinking about you all the time: how hard is over there at that prison place...
Yesterday i was at Bliznetsy shop and i heard the song by Adreano Celentano "Ja tebya lyublyu". So great song... it made me cry... Fck! You know this song, sugar fox?
One funny thing. I told Kasya yesterday that now i have phone where i can call. But i speak turkish over the phone to ask you to come for the phone. I also told Kasya that the guy didn't understand me when i asked him to call you. Of course we discussed that it was the fault of the guy! :p But also she gave me a great solution. She said - you should call and start to make noise like a cow "muuuuuu" and then after several times everybody at the place will know that it's you calling for sugar fox! :)))) Great idea i think! When to start???
But this evening i've got a bonus! It was you calling in a good mood and even laughing at me! I understood from you "alo" that it was you! But i should say at least the name of the guy with whom i would like to speak. And the guy answered: "Burada Serkan A" My daaarling! Nononoooo! Do not play with meeee! :)))) I'm happy that you are better and it made me happier! Ya lyublyu tebya, moy malen'kiy durachok! :* Btw how is your russian? :p

My call to the prison.

It was my first call to the prison today. First of all i wanted to kill skype program because it made updating as soon as i should call very quickly! He should wait for me for a long time but i could do nothing and just fcking wait... Finally! It works and i call. A guy answered. I said my magic words: "Alo. Serkan Akpolat ile gorusebilir miyim?" He asked "Kim?" I understand that he asked: "Whom?" I said again "Serkan Akpolat". Then sugar fox came to the phone. I was very happy that the guy understood me and that finally i hear sugar fox's voice. But here happiness stopped. He said me that the guy didn't understand me and that he had to goooo. :( But i think that it was the guy who can not hear well not me speaking bad. I will try one more time very soon and then we will see!!! ;)

...

Lyubov moya!!! I feel even worse myself now... Yesterday when i came home at smth 12 after the meeting with Kasya i wanted to open pc and write a post about how i miiiiiiiiiiss you. It's not possible to explain everything in words but you can feel it i think because i feel it. I'm thinking about you all the time. If i wrote a post yesterday it was like a complain of the life. You know that i do not like to complain. But today.... Fck! I felt, i felt that smth is wrong. Mama and Kasya told me that i shouldn't worry (there is just no connection in this place now) but my heart is not easy. Serkan! Pozhaluysta! Just wait chut-chut and everything will be great as before! Seni seviyorum kucuk kirpi! :* :* :*

Wedding day.

Privet, moy miliy chelovek! We have so limited connection now.  :( It's very difficult for me... But anyway we have to survive this too! I miss you everyday but i missed you yesterday especially! Why?! Cause yesterday it was finally the wedding of Andrey and Galya. It was first wedding where the window of the limousine car was smashed. It was also first wedding when a fiancées were late for the official ceremony. :)) And finally it was a first wedding which unofficial part took place in rock club! :))

While we were at the limousine and at the club i heard all the time the songs which always make me remember about you. There is already a list of such songs! :)) I can feel that if you are far away from me you are really next to me in my heart, in my mind! :*

The wedding was good but chut chut unorganized in my friend's style. It was possible to see people who were bored (they were from relatives), or who were too active (cause i think they were too nerviouse).

During the day we were at the Moscow film studio. It was really very interesting and nice place. Then at the club it was pleasant atmosphere and great music.

One more thing. I drunk much, really much but i was not drunk at all. I mean really at all. It was strange because i didn't drink for a long time before. I think it is because my nerves are not ok now. But it will gone very soon just after this september! :))

During yesterday day i miss you very very much the whole day. I mean usually when i'm in my day i work or do smth but when i was around couples in the beautiful dress and smile i wanted sooo much you to be next to me. To feel myself more happy next to my lovely boy. Ponyal? :))

Seni seviyorum cok cok cok!!! Ooooochen! And i will make angel soup for you! ;)) Do not know why i remember about it now but i will make! I promise! :))))  

These crazy days!

Sugar fox! These days were really crazy! There are several points. First. Why do i do everything at the last moment??? Second. Why do i feel myself sensitive before Galya and Andrey wedding (i mean i feel like their day is very important for me. Just wonder why? Maybe because i miss you sososoooo much so i take everything a little bit strange?) Third. I have a real problem with my image (i mean what dress to put on, what accessorizes, what make-up). And there is no time already and i want to shout and run from the room to the kitchen and back. Usually when i have feelings like that you speak with me and you somehow make me calm. :)) I will try to remember what you usually say me...mmmmm... your deep voice... ooooh... i missss you my love very much!!!
Btw i will watch "A girl with a dragon tattoo" on TV. I remember how you started to read it. :) How many times? :p
I want to have the same morning like yesterday. Cause my best morning starts from your voice at mu cep telefon. Seni seviyorum tatlim!!! Cok cok cok! :*    .

First day of this summer, your new place and pirates...

Omg! It's almost 1 month gone after my last post... Time is passing very quickly. From one point of view it's so long time but from my blog view - it's so short. Yep! I haven't much free time during last time (i try to spend every minute to learn the language) but anyway i will try to find out more time for the blog. Because i know how it can be interesting to read it after you come back! :*
I will try to sum up the story about our trip to Prague with my mum cause the trip was funny and good. But the most i'm worrying now is the place where you are going to have you final military. You sent me a msg today that it's Mardin central prison. Fck! How it will be over there? Is it safe? Sooo many questions, misunderstanding and worries in my head... I hope that everything will be all right! As soon as i got out of metro i called my family to speack chut-chut about your new place and my father said that it is not so bad place and that you can have easy military there. But he thinks from Russia point of view. I really hope that in Turkey is the same. I will be waiting for your news very very very much!
One more thing. After my yoga we met with Kasya and Vova. We went to Karibian Pirates film. I will not tell you how all my dreams were with you (of course Jonny made me forget about you for several minutes but then i was back for my dreams :p) and how i was waiting for your call keeping my mobile at the hands during the whole film. I will tell you about Vova who asked me: how is your soldier over there? So even Vova asked about you!!! Ponayl, sugar fox? Lyubov moya, take care and remember how i love you!!! :* Iyi geceler canim!

Your voice in my mobile

I'm so happyhappy right now!!! I speak with you 2 or 3 minutes, i hear your voice and i can jump to the sky after it!!! You are ok and i'm smiling and all dreams are with you and everything everything!!! I like sooo much when you call me!!! Sugar foooox! I miss you soooo much and lovelovelove you my babegin!!!
P.S. And i will put girl's stupid pictures when i want to express my emotions! Because this is my blog! :p

Girl in pink tights got pink roses!!!

Can you imagine this??? When i put on my pink tights i even could not imagine how this day will be finished. I bought my pink tights for my far away now (but always close) love. But it's spring now so i decided to use them! Of course with not so short skirt - i went to the office. I thought that "krasotka guy" saw me today during lunch time or just at the building of the office and liked my pink tights. I didn't know it exactly - i just can imagine.
Something like at 5 a guy from our delivery department called my mobile and said "Hi! How are you? There is a delivery for you. The guy gave only your mobile and as soon as i dialed i understood that the number is your. You know the guy call Ivan?" I said - no! He said that he ordered flowers!!!
In this moment you should just see the face of my Kasya! I thought she will kick meee! Or will bite me!!! I told her this story today after the office and before the film when she saw my new bouquet! She was sooo funny! And Vova sometimes present her flowers. Why can't be happy for me??? They she barely cried and said - "But you told me that you have been to another place for lunch! How could krasotka guy see you???" And she was right! This beautiful story was totally lie!!! :)))))))) But i was laughing much! Today the customer (he is the customer of my department) made a delivery for the girl but he didn't know her exact address and phone. We tried but it was impossible and the guy said - ok! Let's say you've done the delivery! That's why we got 51 pink roses for 4 persons in my department. We cut the bouquet and divided roses for everybody. And i smiled and said for the girls - "Today i put on me pink tights and we got pink roses. Maybe i should put on white tomorrow???" :))))) Sugar fox! Ya tebya lyublyu miliy moy malchik! Iyi geceler tavsancik! :*
P.S. I liked the film today! ;)

Sana ihtiyacim var!

Cok cok!!! Right now very much! They all around me should stop talking, complaining, critisizing and i just want to put my nose into your chest and close my eyes!!! Her sey guzel olacak!!!  

Smiling again!

Sugar fox! I'm at vdnh home and i'm smiling and i'm happy! You remember how i was complaining you today that i was so tired that i thought that i would go crazy! I went today to about 5 different places at +4 and very hard wind in my leather jacket! But during this time (when i barely cried) i remembered Angel' hotel bed, you happy and smily next to me, you trying to remember the date! :)))) Soooo funny!
Oy, really today was sooo hard day. But i finally got the result - first necessary paper for the flat question! I hope that i will collect all papers before the end of May!
Why am i happy now? First reason is that you called me today! :* Second is that in Moscow is +18!!! And third is that i'm at home, in 5 minutes i will close my pc, say iyi geceler for you and send you a kiss and will fall asleep! Seni ozledim!!! Cok cok cok! :*

Morning adventure! :)

I'm in t. Pet now at my aunt flat. I had a very funny adventure in the morning in the train. To save money i use 2nd class usually so people sleep all together 6 persons in one something like room. But everybody can pass you so there is no doors at all. To sleep normal i use these secial things for the ears (taps??? sugar fox! i don't remember the word). Usually special lady (who check your tickets, etc) wake everybody up. But not this time!!! Can you imagine people along my sleeping place standing to go out of the train and one guy shaked my leg to wake me up! Me like homeless at the cold street. Everybody is looking at me. Good morning olya! :)))))

My first post after the interruption.

Yep! Today is my first post after 4 days interruption. My brains are in order again and i want to share some news and dreams with my lovely sugar fox! I'm trying to understand - we are really chut  chut the same (can feel the same feeling the same time) or during your vacation days you made influence on me that my feelings were strange. To be honest i shouldn't tell you that (for you not to be more sad) but my brains were confused too. But right know i'm really ok and as usual. And the main thing that you and me should really remember all the time is that we love each other in spite of strong circumstances. Yep! That's the main idea!!! :* For me this strange condition finished yesterday. I think that during this weekend i was sooo nervous that that was the reason why i was sooo tired yesterday after my last working day. I felt this tiredness physically. I mean after 7 p.m i even couldn't look into my pc. And i felt asleep at 11 p.m! Can you imagine my love???
But today is really everything ok. I spoke to you during the day (i mean in my mind :) ) and i remembered very often today how you say me usually aaaaaskiiiimskaaaa! Soooo funny! Ya tebya lyublyu moy miliy malchik! :*
By the way i had yoga class today and it was much easier then the time before! I will go to St. Pet in 2 hours by train and my flight will be already tomorrow. My aunt (Shushik's mum) will come to Moscow in Saturday at 7 in the morning. And my mum will come the same Saturday but at 7 in the evening. Soooo many visitors for vdnh flat and grey teddy bear! ;)
Two days ago we watched a film with Kasya. The film's name was Killing Bono. I liked it very much. The main thing was "don't be jealous and just your life". One guy (a friend of Bono from U2 from their teenage time) wanted everything that Bono has but was soooo unlike in everything that he did. Sugar fox!!! I'm so proud that we don't have jealous feeling and just trying to live and enjoy. I hope we can be like that till the end! ;)
I think that's it for now cause i should pack my bag and run run run for the train station! Seni cok cok seviyorum kucuk kirpi! :* :)))))
P.S. I was on Treskaya street after yoga (in the very center next to the Kremlin) and Tverskaya was blocked for the traffic because military had training before 9 May parade. So i saw several tanks and some other things and of course thought about sugar fox. Called my mum and said - Muuuum, right now next to me a big tank on Tverskaya and i imagine my Serkan in the same tank! Mum was laughing much! Whyyyyyy???? :))))))

Day of two ceremonies.

Everybody was talking today about the royal wedding of William and Kate. Even in Russia! I do not speak about England - they have public holiday today. In Russia people who did not work were watching the ceremony of TV. Even people at the offices did it (we used youtube to see the ceremony). Then people discussed everything: guests, wedding dress, wedding ring, flowers, etc etc! The day passed under the royal wedding moto! But not mine! I mean of course i was in discussion too and i liked the ceremony very very much (they looked soooo happy and beautiful!!!) but my soul was in another ceremony! Military ceremony in a Turkish city called Kastamonu! My lovely boy passed it today!!! His family came to watch a little lovely soldier (i mean he is the tallest person in the family :p but for me he is today little lovely guy! :))) ). And now he has rest!!! Finally! I'm very very very happppy for him! He needs rest!!! He really gained it!!! And finally we spoke much today! And we will do more :p And also i hope to put into this post a picture of my little lovely military guy during his ceremony! :*

P.S. I will not see pictures from sugar fox ceremony but i've just seen him over camera in skype!!! Blin! I didn't see him for 18 days! My love! My sugar fox! My Serkashaa!!!

Top secret girl

My love! :) First of all the idea about which i was thinking when i was driving from the office to home. You asked me to send you a picture with my blue threads. Mr evil! I thought much about it buuuut let me have some secrets from you! :)) I really tell you so many things especially here. I will be more silence after you are back! :p I heard that top secret girls are very popular! :p Anyway you will see the final version of my tooth in September!!! ;)
Today Sezen told me very very great news!!! Your family will see you tomorrow, will hug you and you will be happy! I will be happy with you too!!! Sugar fooox! :))) Aaaand it will be pictures of my lovely boy! :* And Sezen promised me to send these pictures! I waiting, waiting, waiting soooo much!!!!!
Right now some news from my life for you.
Bad news. You remember i told you about very good girls from my university who is living with a drug addicted guy (who takes heroin). She is pregnant and she wants to give birth to the child. I'm shocked to be honest! How isn't she afraid? Or i don't understand something?! (Btw i miss so much your advices and your opinion!!!)
Kasya and Vova are quarreling all the time. Today he refused to pay the part of money for her flat. She was very angry about it! He will go to Uhta for holidays (yep! we have another public holidays soon! :p) to have rest there (it means to drink vodka with his friends! :))) ). Kasya will stay in Moscow.
There is one girl who is living in Belarussia. She is a good girl, not my close friend but smth like that. She asked me about Istanbul some times ago: how to go, what to see, etc. Her status in vkontake yesterday: Iyi uykular, tatli ruyalar! I commented: Are you preparing for the trip? She answered: Yes! We are learning the minimum which we need to know. Fck! What is the purpose of the trip??? :)))
Ksu sent me a msg today. She told about her trip to Kaliningrad, how she liked the city. She will go to Greece with her mum next week. She also told about Selcuk and Dasha. She said that everything horosho with them. They prolong visa for Dasha through Selcuk's work. They are looking for the work for Dasha also. So they are happy!
Today it was first spring thunder and lighting! In most cases (when i'm in a safe place) i like much hard rain with thunder and lighting. Right now i'm dreaming about us together at home during this weather! Mmmmm, sugar fooox! :*
Btw tell me one thing! I want so much to tell you some important words in Turkish and i forgot everything when you call me. Why can you speak Russian with me during your calls??? Are you a super man??? You know? Tell me! You know how? ;) How i love you, bebegin? :*     

At home finally!

Good evening! OOOOO! I'm at home finally and i'm happy! To be honest i was at home yesterday at night already but i was sososoooo tired to write a post. Sugar fox! I understand your tiredness sometimes for 100%! My flight was delayed and was not satisfied with this fact and she was complaining all the time...
Fck! As soon as i start to think how many trips to St. Pet will be in May it drives me crazy chut chut. Buuut not soo many - only two times + one trip to Prague. Eeeee! We will overcome!!! I started to take documents for flat question. We will see how it will be but I'm very optimist about this. I hope to take all necessary documents till May, 25 and give them to the special organization. New epoch will start soon!
But St. Pet was sooo beautiful during these days! So sunny, so nice!!! I was in different parties of the city and walked much and in spite of tiredness i tried to enjoyed it! The city was really great. And i remember my thought when i was waiting for the bus on Nevsky Prospect next to Kazan Cathedral - Fck! Sugar fox will really like this city!!! Seni seviyorum kucuk kirpi! Ochen ochen!!! I'm at home and i'm with you even through internet! :*
P.S. My tooth is better and better now! :))))

Sun is shining again!

Sugar fox!!! I heard yur voice and now sun is shining in my soul again! I'm sosososo happy that everything is ok and the reason that you didn't call was that you were tired. I mean great that nothing more is happened! You all is ike a pill! My love, wait chut chut and it will be better everything! :*

Thinking of you...

Good night! Today i had one dental operation (second step from the finish) and i'm happy that everything is over because i was chut chut nervious as usually before it. But 1.5 hours and here we are: new stitch, new blue threads (for my eyes again!) and new step! Chut chut pain but it will be over in two days!
But in spite of this everythig i spent the whole day in thinking only about one guy! And you know his name. I really hope that everything is horosho with my love and he just can not call me... But he will do it soon! Angel feels it even if she is chut chut sad! :*

Intensive sunday day

First of all i'm in St. Pet now and there is internet (but no fb and vkontakte :)) they are blocked). Everything horoso and the fligh was easy and without any adventure! :) But right now it is already the end of the day... This day was very intensive and rich for different interesting things.
We met with Andrey and Galya at 3 p.m. not very far from the Kremlin. The weather was very very good today in Moscow. We wanted to walk chut chut before my flight but the main reason to meet was that Galya took the book which i wanted to get during some time. And today i finally got it. Btw sugar fox will like the book! :)) Turkish language book! :p Galya bought it some years ago but she didn't use it and now the book found a new owner! :)
Before this meeting i left already the car next to vdnh flat and used metro (all thing to go to St. Pet were with me already). I noticed that there are so many beautiful girls in metro all around me. I mean everybody wears dresses and makes their best make-up. I thought: Fck! Finally spring has come!!! :))
When we met with my friend we went to Arbat. And there was even more interesting show then i saw in the metro. Lots of lots of girls and boys were walking or just standing with the sign "Obnimi menya - Hug me!" Can sugar fox imagine these??? Fck!!! Hundreds of people with this sign! Even i saw a guy with a crown on his head with a sigh "Royal hugs". So so funny! I was really impressed! I thought my love would be veryvery impressed too! Yep! Spring has come! I thougt again.
Sugar fox called me before the flight. He said that wil call me later but didn't do it. I hope that everything horosho and it was just Turkish promise. :p I mean no something strong happened. Miliy moy! Spoki noki and said for me Good luck for tomorrow! :)))

Easter night

I just came home after visiting to Andrey and Natasha and meeting big Russian holiday - Easter. It is already 3 year when we are together during Easter night. Two years before we were 3 of us and i usually stayed for the night at their flat. This year were are four already! :)) Danya was with us (sleeping of course :) he is only 8 months old) and that was the reason why i went home. This is a good tradition - with them i feel myself like at home in a family! Of course i miss this feeling sometimes! :p So we waited till midnight, said "Hristos voskres - Voistinu voskres", kissed 3 times, ate pasha (this special traditional bread) and colored eggs and i went home. Very good and warm feeling right now in my mind. Even my love is very far away now and i hope that he is sleeping the very minute while i'm at my flat in my pajama behind my pc and while i'm smiling to him! :*
Today one more thing happened. My mum asked me for many many times to go with her somewhere. She was abroad last time when she was smth about 35 years old! She wants very much to go to Paris or to Prague. She prefers to start from Prague with me (i think she wants to leave the trip to Paris for some more time and then makes it with my dad! :p). She asked me to find out the good trip (because she is a total sponsor of our travel! :) ). We have only 1 month - May - cause from the beginning of the summer my brother's children will go to Eysk and will live with my parents till the end of August (usual practice). So i opened internet and found today very very very good offer. I run out from the office one hour before 9 p.m. and went to the touristic office. I was very lucky! I made everything for the first step! I mean right now we are waiting the hotel confirmation and if everything is ok i will give document for the visa on Wednesday. My father still can not believe that we will go somewhere because we were really speaking about it almost 3 (or even more) years!
As soon as i was out of the touristic office and just got into my yellow car my sweet boy - sugar fox - called me. I was so excited that i got out of the car to the embankment with a great view and shouted everything to my miliy mal'chik!!! I wanted him so much to share this happiness with me!!! Lyubimiy moy, sladkiy moy, rodnoy moy ya tebya ochen ochen lyublyu! :* Sana ihtiyacim var!!! Iyi geceler kucuk kirpi!        

Manymanymany roses

Privet! Iyi aksamlar! :) It was my usual working day without lots of new and very interesting thing but with many many many roses! My sugar fox likes so much stories like that!!! During this friday there were 2 big orders: 1 delivery of 301 cream roses to Samara on monday (in 3 days) and 3001 roses to Yaroslavl tomorrow!!! And i was very very lucky!!! Because logically both of these orders should be followed by me but in Moscow office they decided to make more money and to make delivery to Yaroslavl with our (my Moscow office) car. So we will delivery 3001 roses to Yaroslavl from Moscow! And we took 90000 rubles only for the delivery! :) It's really incredible price for 240 km! :))) But people want to pay such big money! The whole order is for smth 480000 rubles! Fck!!! Really why??? The customer is the same person who made 1001 roses delivery to Wailing Wall in Jerusalem! Maybe it's better to give money for the children who have no parents??? :( Buuut really i'm soooo happy that i'm not involved in this order!!!
Also sometimes  i think that working in my business for a girl is not so good thing: you can see not so pleasant things (one guy sends flowers to different girls with true love words for each girl) or you can get the idea "this guy presents sooo big amount of flowers - that means real love" (yep! i'm a girls! of course sometimes i have such stupid ideas! :p) and you also know prices! Eeeh!
I was chut chut tired and sad in the evering while i was thinking about all this and that it's time to go out of the office and to go to the empty home... But sugar fox is a great guy! He called me! ;) Seni cok cok seviyorum yakisiklim!!! :p

Small champion

My little nephew Grishka became a champion of 100 meters swimming competition in Saratov today. He is only 8 years old and he became first in his age (till 10 years old) group! He was very very happy today. He called my mother and my father (his grandmum and papa) to share his feeling and even run to the school to show his medal! :)) He is really molodets!!! Small champion! :)))
P.S. Today my lovely sugar fox has not teddy popo mood! He is molodets tooo and i love him!!! :*

Teddy popo mood :p

Many many thoughts and ideas in the head. Yep! Especially some hours ago they overfilled my head. The reason for that is the mood of my army love and me. He is very tired and a little bit sad (not a little bit to be honest!). It's not easy over there and i know it. For me it's not easy here too. And i have many many fears. But i say no for these fears and bad ideas! Nonononono! You see?! I see you all (bad ideas) mother fcker! Nononononooooo!
Sugar fox! WE WILL OVERCOME EVERYTHING! WE WILL GET OVER DIFFICULTIES!!! Yep! I think it will be better if we speak 1 time per several days. You should have rest, sleep and not stand in cue! It's not easy for me but it will be ok, i will used to it!
But you know tavsancik that i love you! I love you very much! And we really have connection! I mean we've spoken in chart and agreed not to speak over phone but i think that you felt how i wasn't barely crying and you called!!! Seni seviyorum! Buuuuut! :))) It was last time today of everyday calls. It will be better anyway for now!
Your mood today is called teddy popo! You are sweet and lovely like teddy (to be honest much much more! :p ) but today noooot positive and very tired - soooo teddy popo mood and i will bike this popo during those 10 days of not coming out! :))))))

Yoga in my life again! :))

Today i started to practice yoga again. I didn't do it in a class more the 1 year. I was even a little bit nervous about it. The class should start at 16.30. I went there by metro because after i finish it will be rush time for traffic. And my yoga classes are in the very center. So i left the car near Botanicheskiy Sad metro station (I decided to try metro station which even sugar fox tried :p ) and went to Pushkinskaya. As soon as i went out of the metro it started wet snowing! Fck! Is this spring will be strange till May, 31??? I was totally wet for those 15 minutes before i got the yoga center. Then i had 2 hours practice!!! In the middle i thought i will stop right now but i continued. 2 hours was really long time. But i did it! ;) And even if i barely can move my legs and hands i was very very happy!!! And i was more happy just out of Botanicheskiy Sad when sugar fox called! Lyu tebya! :*
P.S. I'm a hero of the day! :p    

Generation P and some uneasy ideas.

Today we met with Kasya. She is back from St. Pet. She was there with Vova (as i told), this time was without big problems. Road was terrible (as i guessed) and to be honest i'm happy that i didn't go with them.
We went to the cinema to watch new film called Generation П. П comes from Pepsi. The film is about my country just after USSR stopped to be as a country. It is made by the novel of one very famous author. The book was published when i was 16. I could not read it that time (started but stopped). But now i like the film. I mean it is not about me, about my life but it's something like truth but not my truth.
Anyway today i more impressed by another thing... by my father's words about my relationship. Impressed and think all the time... Fck! I will try not to think much but just wait and look. Maybe it will help... And also very windy today. I mean stormy and chut chut scared. I need you my love much!!!

20 minutes of girl's happiness!!!

Every girl has her own happiness. I can give million of different happinesses here. For me today it was 20 minutes of charting at night, 4 minutes of phone conversation in the morning and first picture from military! :)) He is really soooo funny at the picture! My lovely sugar fox! Moy miliy lyubimiy chelovek!!! :* And very shaved btw! :p
He will have very very responsible task tomorrow - from 4.30 till 20.30 he will wash dishes and peal potatoes. :p Rybka moya i will be with you in my dreams all the day tomorrow! Maybe my cooking abilities will help you chut chut! :) Seni cok cok seviyorum! Iyi geceler kucuk kirpi!!! :*

Saturday night

Dobroy nochi! I'm at home and want to share some news with you my love. I really hope that right now you have good normal night dream. :)
Soo after my working day i met with Andrey and Galya. First we went to one place - overcrowded and no possibility to sit. Then we went to another place. The name is Squat cafe (but actually it's not a cafe but a club). When sugar fox comes to Moscow we will go there by all means, he will like the place! ;) As we entered the band started their performance. Estonian band! Fck! Really guys from this small country - Estonia. It's not easy even to find a band in Estonia itself but even a concert in Moscow... Strange - we thought! :)))
My friends told me everything. The wedding will be on June, 04 (Just wonder will it be russianal traditional wedding? Can not believe that because guys are very similar to meee... sooo...). Galya is still shocked chut chut! Andrey made everything very quickly. She said - eeeee.... maybe i should choose a wedding dress already?! :))) So funny! I even can not believe too! :)) They will start to live together very soon. Today was the first meeting with the parents (i mean between each other). Soon it will be absolutely new life for both of them! :))) Really can not believe till the end! :))))
They ask about my trip to sugar fox's city, about his army about our relationship. I was a blonde girl! :p
Then a concert was finished, we spent some time over there and decided to go home. There is one strange feeling when i'm with them. Guys drink usually but it feels like i'm drunk after that. :)))) All the time i feel it with them! Hmmm! The way home was like a game too: i think there were many drunk drivers because they made strange things, drove like crazy (mix of russian and turkish! :)) ) and parked at the middle of the streets! Or maybe i'm tried biras?! Time to go to bed? Lyublyu tebya moy kucuk kirpi! Iyi geceler yakisiklim! :*

Sunny morning in Moscow! :))

When i opened my eyes today in the bed i understood that the day will be very sunny today! I went out and started to enjoy the feeling! Daaa, step by step very slowly but spring is coming! Yep, the sun is not sooo hot but it still shines! I really smiled and enjoyed during driving to to the office. I like to work during weekend: no cars in the streets, no much people at the office. And even one more bonus of the day! Sugar foooox calling me! My love! :)))) I like so much to hear your deep voice! :p :))) (I hope your feet will be ok soon :(( ) After i closed the mobile i didn't understand for several seconds where i was! :))) Serkashaaa! What are you doing with me??? Bee??? Like that time when we were coming from the airport in December! :)))) 

And finally when i prepared this post one more news came to me! From today no visa between our counties!!! Congratulations for us!!! :)))   

Pajamas, orange and angel smile!!!

Yep! The day was not easy, even the end of it. We have some more troubles with that bewitched order in St Pet  (a wife of the driver who made the delivery and got big penalty called the recipient of those 501 roses and cried and asked not to take penalty from the guy! :)) ) Fuck! It was total collapse!!! Meeting with gm, firing of people in St Pet partner office and penalties... Then big traffic jam on the way to the place where i usually wash the yellow friend. At traffic jamp i usually think - i will be over in 1 or 2 km just after that turn or after that traffic light. Do people who are next to me usually think the same? Or they just doesn't care?! Why usually people spend friday night drinking vodka (!) :)), in the clubs or in some other comfortable places but i all the time have this "miss trouble" nick and spend my time in another places and in another time?! :)) During this time most of all i was thinking about my pajamas, tea, chut chut fish cake and about sugar fox (during several seconds my dreams were caught by patom in angel's house but do not tell anybody about it! shshshsh!!!)
And finally after the working day, traffic jamp and car washing i'm at home in my pajamas, eating fish cake and orange and go to gmail... And what do i see there??? Moy miliy chelovek wrote me 2 messages!!! AAAAAAAAA!!! I'm not alone even at midnight at my flat! He sent me these 2 messages and i'm already not complaining, i don't want to sleep and i'm smiling!!! :)))) Thank you kroshechka-kortoshechka moy! ;) 
Btw today at the office we were all under the impression of the failed delivery. We opened history of the orders of the guy and found that last year we have some troubles of his delivery too. The delivery was at the same day and we started to suggest what was the reason of the sending flowers to the girl. Almost everyone said that it is the birthday of the girl and only i supposed - maybe this is the date when they met each other?! My girls looked at me and asked - do you really know any guy who can remember such date??? Eeeee! - i thought and immediately remembered that your day at the hotel and pillows from the window in my dreams! :p You are not alone sugar fox!!! :)))))
Some more short news of the day. I bought a card of 4 entrance to yoga with a good discount to a very good club!  I will start from small step like you told me to do! I didn't practice yoga seriously during 1 year already! Why not to start this month?!
Today i' got sms from your lovely Lesha Vlasov. He asked - are you back from Istanbul? I wanted to answer - no, still there! But did not answer anything.
Kasya with Vova left to St Petersburg today. They will stay at Kasya's parents flat for 2 nights. I hope this time it will be without those big scandal!
Last short news - kucuk kirpi called me today and i love him muuuuch! :))) But maybe this is not a news! Should think about it! ;) And also i think that it is proper time to say bye-bye to the day and iyi geceler for my askim!!! :*
    

Where are you???????

AAAAAA! My love! I knew that this day will be not so good because the beginning was with the lost call... Buuuut! Fck! Soooo uzhaaaas! Serkasha!!! And you are not online, nobody can make me calm and quiet... My lovely boy!!! Today we failed the delivery of 501 roses in St. Petersburg. We were 2 hours later... Not my department mistake, not my fault but general manager doesn't care usually. I'm not afraid of being fired (i will find the job anyway) but the situation... 37 fcks!!! Suuuuugar fox! But for you it's more difficult so i should be again strong russian girl and no complaims or crying!

And i thought that i heard seaburd's shouts today! Can you imagine seaburd's shouts??? But finally it turned out to be car alarm! Tooo much dreams of Istanbul! 

A little bit sad...

Even not a little bit... Had my bath and lost sugar fox's call at 7.20 a.m. :(((( Fck!!! Now the whole day will think about it. Durochka! Should take my mobile everywhere!!! :(( Most of all want evening and sweety voice at my mobile!

Fish cake and other useful things.

Good evening! Today i have my day-off. During previous 3 moths i never had problems with my day-offs. Usually knew what to do. But not today... :( The weather was usual springy day (i mean Moscow spring :) ) - rainy but not snowy. I woke up, ate, surfed in internet and went to the shop again. Nothing interesting, nothing new... Felt that something wrong, didn't understand what... Tried to do something not to go crazy. Bought sparzha (sugar fox should remember how this vegetable is useful regarding Vova :))) ), some other food and cooked fish cake! Yep! Really fish cake! :)) Ochen vkusniy!!! So i try to escape from melancholy and loneliness with cooking this time. Finally i understood that i got now sooooo much free time! And nothing to do... Maybe really start to learn turkish?! ;)
And then kucuk kirpi called! Called my love, my sweety boy! 2 minutes and happiness and smile and everything! And the main this calmness! Finally after the whole day i found my place at the vdnh flat and right now i happily can go to sleep saying Iyi geceler askim! :))) Lyublyu tebya miliy moy! :*

  

Estonian girl :)

Priveeeet! I'm at home feel chut chut alone but the mood is good. There are some reasons for that. First reason is kucuk kirpi called me today 2 times!!! In the morning and in the evening when i was driving to Ashan. Btw when i bought some food there i suddenly understood - how he will be without chocolates over there??? But he is my hero!!! Of course it will be not easy but he will overcome! And maybe there are some shops for buying chocolates??? :)))
Actually i'm hero today too!!! I'm so proud of myself! :)) This is second reason. I had fight with my bath tap again today! It was totally broken and i had already several fights with him! :))) Wanted to call a special man to come and fix it but my father explained me over skype (thanks technologies! :)) ) what can i do to fix it by myself! AND I DID IT!!! Fck! I can now earn money by fixing bath taps! :p
But this is not the main story of the day! The main story which gave the name of this post started on Saturday exactly the day when my plane arrived to Sheremetievo. As the plane was late (or more exactly very early in the morning) i went home, switched off my mobile and started to sleep. When i opened my mobile after i woke up i found several missed calls and 1 mms from Andrey. I thought - wtf! doesn't you know that my mobile can not receive mms??? I close the phone and forgot about it. Today I've got a msg to my mobile that you can see mms at the special phone provider website. And there were login and password to enter. I opened the page and i was shocked! WTF! I called Andrey immediately!!! I asked - did you do it or it's only the first step??? Then i heard silence and his answer was - of course, i knew that your trips to Estonia can not  be just in vain! But i could not even imagine that you have such strong result! - that was his answer. Why?! You remember how russians always laugh at estonian people calling them very slowly nation. So that was the reason to think that i have too big estonian influence. He sent me mms on Saturday with the picture of themselves (Andrey + Galya) and ZAGS sign on background. ZAGS is a place where game's over! :)))) for every man i mean (sugar fox believes in this much too :p) And i called Andrey back only on Wednesday!!! :))) Estonian blond girl! :)) Btw they only gave the papers so the wedding will be in summer! I will get details during this weekend i think! ;) Poka!

First call!!!!!

Dobroe utro! :))) Yesterday i thought hmmmm, when will it be the first call? When will i hear this sweety voice for the first time? And i even can not imagine that it will be so early! :))) Suuugar fooooox! You called me today! It was one of the best morning since my back from Istanbul! You were serious buut so lovely! Kroshechka-kartoshchka moya! :))) He said that there are many many people all around, the place is overcrowded but the main thing that i want to know is ok - everybody is very friendly! Really very important comparing to my country army. Of course he can not sleep well, of course he will have this problem, i can understand him for 100% here because i have the same problem when i sleep in another place with unknown people around but he will used to it. I know! He is the very strong and become even stronger very soon! Gunaydin askim! :))))  

First day without him

Privet! Today is my first day... first day without him...
I came home, opened my pc as usual but he is not there... my internet boy friend :p I don't want to cry right now, I'm just feel empty and sad. All dreams and thoughts about him... How is he over there? What does he feel my lovely slatkaya rybka? How are those guys all around you? How will you sleep? What and how will do when you start to want to eateateat??? Sad dreams started to surround me here in vdnkh flat... Blond small girl and sad dreams....
As soon as i want to start to complain and cry Sezen (a sister of my sugar fox) called me and said that he just called and said that HE IS OK!!! Serkashaaaa! Even now you make me smile and feel happy!!! Ty takoy molodets, mr evil! I ya tebya taaaaaaaak lyublyu!!! :)))))
I told you already but want to say it again - sugar fox! you are like first man at the cozmos! Today is 50 years ago Yury Gagarin said "Poeeeehali!" and went to cosmos first time! And today is your first day in the army so i can easily call you moy lisyonok - kosmotyonok (my sugar fox is a cosmic guy!!!) :)))) Really!
Today at work when my head already started to boil from all these thoughts and dreams i found myself dreaming that the only thing that i want now is to escape and runrunrun to Eysk. I mean when i understood that i can not be with you now, i can not talk, i can not see you even through internet i felt myself so small and vulnerable again that i need a shelter so much. The only place that will help me in any case (when you are not with me) is my parent's place... And i felt that i need to go there rapidly! Buut it was some minutes and then i felt again that i'm a strong russian girl ;) that you love!
Last words that i want to say in this post. I want you to know that I WAITED FOR YOU ALL MY LIFE I CAN WAIT CHUT CHUT MORE!!!!!!! (fck! it's only 6 months even less).
Aaaand btw i'm still smiling! I'm looking at you evil picture and it makes me smile more! Only good thoughts my love!!!

First words...

Privet guys! Actually I’m angel but a man whom I dedicate this blog calls me angelskaya. I met him during my travels to Istanbul. That’s why you can see this wonderful city in the first picture of my blog. I will not tell you about that first meeting in October and those other our meetings in both cities (Istanbul and Moscow) and adventures. Now I want to tell you why I dedicate this blog to him. Actually he has a lot of different names. One of them is sugar fox!

He is going to the military in 10 days. I already miss him terribly. Do not even want to think how it would be within these 6 months… But we will survive! We can!!! I feel it! I am making this blog first of all for him! When he has the opportunity and time he will read what is happening in my life until he is not next to me, what thoughts come to my mind, what feelings are overwhelmed.

He also has a birthday today! This is so cool and magical! By the way it is time already to discover all the secrets! And just one question – don’t you forget to meet me at the airport Ataturk at night from Monday to Tuesday (next week)? Our usual flight number :)))) AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! I will see, hug and kiss you veryvery soon!!! Just in 2 days! :))) I’m the happiest girl on Earth! Why? Because I met you!!! :* Happy birthday sugar fox!

P.S. Read about our meeting here in a few days!